It has now been a month since our court approval...and one more month until our USCIS approval expires (June 26th). Each day has brought excitement, concern, anticipation, joy, and sadness. One minute I am up. The next down. Joshna is in my heart every day, even though she is not yet in my arms. I look forward to those first moments together, but then I am reminded that we are not there yet. We have the verbal approval from the court, but the court documents are not yet ready. If the documents came today, the orphanage would receive them and send them on to apply for her Indian passport. That process takes an additional ten business days, putting us around June 10th....that is, if her documents come today. The longer they take to arrive, the closer we come to our June 26th deadline. It takes about a week in New Delhi, after we pick up Joshna, to have her tested for TB and finish paperwork at the US Embassy for her visa. This puts us around June 17. Our social worker has now expressed concern about how close we are cutting it to that deadline, so she is wanting us to go ahead and reapply with the USCIS. This will require another home study, redundant paperwork, and the extra cost and time. This seems like the last hurdle at the end of a very long race, and I am just not sure how I am going to possibly get my body over something so very high. It seems I will just collapse into it and not be able to get up. Of course I will get up, for Joshna, but I have lost any momentum I may have had. God, please be my strength! Please carry me across the finish line and bring our daughter home!
